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hythlodaeus

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[modestpurpose]

I don't know about that.
To me it seems more as if you are certainly damned if you do, but you can make the choice to not.

Would they want you to damn yourself to help them?

[scienceofthearcane]

Possibly they would not. But it's more a matter of whether I would be able to live with that on my conscience.

[modestpurpose]

Have you talked about this with anyone else but me?

[scienceofthearcane]

...No. It would upset others, but I thought it wouldn't upset you.

[modestpurpose]

Viktor, you should tell them.

[scienceofthearcane]

What could I tell them? That I feel afraid of what the Void is doing to me? What good would knowing that I feel afraid of what is happening to me do? I don't know how to stop it, and even if I stopped using what power the process is granting me I will still eventually be consumed anyway.

[modestpurpose]

Let me put it another way.

If Jayce were the one going through this, would you want to know?

[scienceofthearcane]

All else being equal, yes I would. But something you have to understand is that Jayce has been protective to the point of smothering. I worry that if I do tell him what I feel when I see the Void's hold over my mind and body increasing, it will cause him needless levels of stress. I would much rather he have as little stress as possible.

[modestpurpose]

Ah, I see.
In that case, you can trust me to keep the matter to myself. However, if you feel yourself slipping further, I urge you to tell someone about it. Even if that someone is me. I will do what I can.