Yes I have thought of that. However without using it, there is next to nothing that I can do to have any effect on the Trial-made hazards. This becomes problematic when there is someone else who is being hurt by them, and the only means I have of helping them is by using the power that it grants me. It's a matter of Damned if I do and Damned if I don't.
What could I tell them? That I feel afraid of what the Void is doing to me? What good would knowing that I feel afraid of what is happening to me do? I don't know how to stop it, and even if I stopped using what power the process is granting me I will still eventually be consumed anyway.
All else being equal, yes I would. But something you have to understand is that Jayce has been protective to the point of smothering. I worry that if I do tell him what I feel when I see the Void's hold over my mind and body increasing, it will cause him needless levels of stress. I would much rather he have as little stress as possible.
Ah, I see. In that case, you can trust me to keep the matter to myself. However, if you feel yourself slipping further, I urge you to tell someone about it. Even if that someone is me. I will do what I can.
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Date: 2023-08-23 04:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-08-27 10:22 pm (UTC)To me it seems more as if you are certainly damned if you do, but you can make the choice to not.
Would they want you to damn yourself to help them?
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Date: 2023-09-10 06:32 pm (UTC)If Jayce were the one going through this, would you want to know?
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Date: 2023-09-12 03:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-09-23 09:02 pm (UTC)In that case, you can trust me to keep the matter to myself. However, if you feel yourself slipping further, I urge you to tell someone about it. Even if that someone is me. I will do what I can.